hello.
english exam is on Tuesday.
Lit is on Friday.
the rest are next next week.

[quotes Spongebo]
"I'M READY! I'M READY! I'M READY!"
[/quotes]



wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
things are turning up i suppose.
we are now indirectly talking to each other, laughing at our jokes.
wow wee! so KEWL!




at first i put this as one of the smileys on my tagb but its so wierd on it. oh well

THE EXAMS ARE NEXT WEEK!
HOLY COW!
ALL THATS LEFT IS MATH (painly algebra), HISTORY , and MALAY.
MY GOSH! THATS SOO MUCH CRAMMING TO DO!
WHY AM I STILL ON THE COMPUTER?
AH WAIT, I HAVE HOME EC TO DO AND READ UP FOR THE ENGLISH EXAMS.

i will survive.

helloooooooooo.

i wanted to update yesterday but there was something wrong with the monitor so here i am posting now.

Kina! i want my books tmrw thank you. but i'm sure you wont be reading this cos you hardly ever come online =D fine, i'll stop it.

i changed my layout again. i change like i change my bed sheets. saying i change it like as though i change my under wear is a bit exagerated. i suppose its my mood swings. ahahaha as long as my picture is in there <--- its fine.

Joan says i'm starting to speak like Jason. what a joke!

Joan : SIGH! i miss sailing.
Nurul: yeah, its so, what do you call it?, sian now.
Joan: you sound like Jason
Nurul: eew! no lah. ahaha

sooner or later its her who would sound like him on account of her talking to him all the time. ahahaha

yuck! dinner consists of KFC. oh unhealthy. i'm gunna put on weight. die die die.

miss andrea joy dragon, you better be pleased. i gained 1.5 kg, ok? are you happy now? i know i still have about 3kg to put on but i'm already so heavy unlike you.

that was just random and i thought i should announce it since she and a few others think i'm so skinny. hello? Valerie Goh Mei Shi is waayy skinnier than me. we've compared BMIs and i'm sad to say that ours is nearly alike. which means that i'm as fat as t-rex ( no, not ms neo. remember her nick name twoeight people? -laughs- ).

i have no idea what to right for that rather pointless newspaper report we are supposed to do.

i passed my math test. i received the same mark as Bessie. but not that fantastic i must say. i did a 500something word essay on some hero crap for CME. it was impromtu work. ahaha and all the while i was peering at Bessie. fine, not all the time. i'm typing Lilia's compo now.

And all the feelings I thought were gone
Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself

did some very hard thinking while walking just now ( that explains the song ). i shant dispose what i thought of. no, it was not about what normal people my age would think about. but other things. i dont mind living a solitary life. who cares anyway. not like theyre going to ntice me when i'm gone or anything. ah, gee, oh well.

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

i think i failed my 2.4 run. oh my. is 14something a fail? cos poor Gina got more than me. if it is, the both of us are going to fail. oh my!

i really have no idea what to say. i mean, i know what to say. but i just dont know how to put it down in words. well, prolly cos its so angsty and all.

got the science test back today. happy to say that i passed. unfortunately, it wasnt really that fantastic a mark. Faustina was really sad when she found out that most (well, only two) of the Tamil girls got higher marks than her. hehh

i dont want to receive the math test back anymore. 27 people failed and i bet i'm one of them. really.

i better be studying like shit swear. but its so hard to cos everytime I want to go to my room, the computers there standing near the stair landing.

i better get back to my pile of blooming homework. not like anyone cares.

we all have issues

at the risk of sounding bimbotic, i'm gonna go to the edge of the world to shed some weight. i'm gonna force myself to starve until i'm satisfied with my weight and do about a million crunches per night even if it kills me.

i hate certain teachers in the school. fine, only two of them. but still.

i nearly got my bag today. but since it decided to rain, me and Lilia decided not to go. so, shes going to get me a bag. a brown cordroy converse bag. ahahahaa

2.4 tmrw -grumbles like fuck-

nothings impossible; if we work hard for it

how can i do better in just a month?
mebe Joan and Clio (surprisingly Clio is right) are right. i will never know how good i am cos theyre Bytes and i'm not one of them. thus, theyre wayy faster.
but seriously, they are wayy faster even without me being on the opti.
hopefully the training in June will make me better and all. i will do those blooming Starts well. but then again, one month. one bloody month. i still have lots of things to cover. blooming heavens!
you guys better stop pacifying me. it aint doing any good. like saying how everything is going to be alright when it isnt cos its all going to be my fault. all mine.
i better stop. and continue "reflecting" in my notebook.

read this:
You've been so frustrated with them you can hardly stand to be in the same room. For some reason, you're still interested in how they are -- maybe because you're not convinced that avoiding you was what they were really after.

seems familiar, eh? well, it would if you're in my shoes.

mammy and daddy's gone to Bugis to get their new freaking phones ): theyre going to get them damned o2 mini palm things. how cool! when will i get my flip phone?! when? when? prolly once they save enough money after buying those confounded little devils. my phone aint going to be as expansive as theirs ok. its going to cost like whatt? 600$ while theirs are like 1600$ all together? not including those ++ stuff. ah, damm.

goodbye world, i'm leaving.

today was crap I swear. nobody wanted to help for the costume design till the very last minute. and even if they did think of something, they dont do it. so much for a class effort, aye? poor Lavania.

anyway, i'm doing my art research now. and i came across this. its from Gundam Seed by the way.
CLICK.
isnt Gundam Seed supposed to be a kids show? then why in the name of the good Lord would they show this?? ahahaha

i want my 6260 now. now. now. see told you Vanessa. it isnt the same phone as McDonald cashier lady. ( you know who i'm talking about) i'm going to get my bag on Wednesday. finally. after God knows how long of waiting. thank you Ratih for going to buy it with me.

Melissa Mike, my clapping retard partner cutted her hair. she looks like Halle Berry now. ahahaha yeah rite. ahahahaha! shes so vain now cos of her hair. she keeps peering into the mirror she took from her mammy. ahahaha vain pott.

colorful words cant describe the amount of anger i'm feeling for that person right now. right, Joan? some of those men there should think so too. cos we hate him to his blooming guts. why in the name of heavens would you ask us to help out when you already know that you dont need help?
so my saturday was basically wasted when i could have been doing some pretty hard core mugging for midyears cos i want my 6260 and of course to know where i stand.
so me and Joan tried to do whatever work we could do. even if it was to help Tracey Tan. EEEWW!!! yes, so we ended up doing her dirty work. rope coiling. granted, i like to coil rope. but the frikking rope weighed a ton. hello? youre so much bigger so itll prolly be easy peasy to you. dammit. so i just kept saying "Tracey can burn in hell with her ropes for all I care" as motivation. and An Ren and all agreed. yey! but when the lot of them launched out, we had freaking nothing to do. i hate it when i have nothing to do. so,our day was like this, blahblahblahblahblahblahblah.
Gary is a part time masseuse. i think thats how you spell it. yes, he massaged Coach. well, not really. he stabbed him with the balls ofhis feet. i could have done it too if i dint have to help that old women with the results. why do i have to be the trust-worthyperson in the world? but i did take some pictures with Joan's camera and shes going to sent me them later at night along with all the othe retarded pictures we took. like for example the one where we wore our caps. and the one of the half-naked boys swimming in the swimming pool. ahahaha no, we're not stealing other peoples boyfriends. ahahaha too bad theyve been sailing for god knows how long but they still dont have any abs ): bloody wasted i must say. not only did we see boys half anked, we saw tracey too. this, time it was a whit bikini. ahahahaha she and her dad prolly menjemur(ed) badan out there.
he said he saw us there but we dint see him there. so why dint we see each other there? ahahaha ooh! me and Joan saw that teacher from our school. whjats her name? Mrs Tan. ahahahyeah, so many Tans in school. not my english teacher, not my home ec teacher, not my science teacher. i think its the Mrs Eugenia Wee-Tan. yeah, i think its her. woah! she was staring at Joan. ahahaha so scary. ahahaha when she went to the toilet, we follwed her. ahahaha!
this post is way, to contradicting. but oh well.

sports day was pretty much a bloody waste of time. i could have spent the day swimming or at least studying dammit! what with the rain and all. sailing some how got disqualified for the relay race. gee.. i wonder why. why couldnt it have been netball? oh well.

ahahaha had the shock of my life on April Fools Day. dammit! play that prank on me some more and we'll see where you end up. golly gee mister you dont have to do that you know. that was rather low, well, for you anyway.

currently, i'm doing my art research. i love doing research for art cos we dont have to research in word form. ahahaha

well, i edited the layout. but i doubt theres much difference. ah well,

theres training tmrw. and somehow i never look forward to going for trainings. cos itll be the same ol' thing. a tongue lashing from Coach and a promise i'll never be able to keep - to be able to do those blooming Starts properly. thats prolly why i feel am so slow dammit. i always start late.

i shant bore you with my self sorrow (who reads my posts anyway?) and get back to my art research. ha and prolly my International Friendship Day research too.

oh wait! Vanessa, this is so not MCS' phone, ok? yes, nurul is still deciding on what phone to get since her phone is sort of corrupted due to the rain last week. dang!
ooh! nurul is being such a brat she is going top get a new bag. ahahaha its not going to be a crumpler since so many of you are getting them. thus, she is going to get that mambo bag with the spiraly-wiraly stuff on them. (: